I have been so worried and anxious about an enormous change that is coming to our family. In about 30 days I will be officially unemployed. The company that I have worked at for about 2 years has come to the end of the road and is finally shutting the doors.
I am relieved to say goodbye to this company, it has been a roller coaster of a ride and I am relieved to be getting off. Unless some miracle happens within the next 30 days, it will be the first time ever that I have been unemployed.
I have felt a huge surge of emotions in the past 3 months...stress, anxiety, fear, then also relief and determination. It has made me take a look at where my life is at this point and pushed me to make decisions that in the past I may have easily dismissed.
I was driving home last night and the stress just seemed to disappear (although I know it will resurface). I came to terms with that this is just another chapter in my life. I know that down the line I will learn from the possible hard financial times ahead. I will gain perspective in some way for working for a company that fell away. It will be interesting to see where the new road takes us and how we will survive and end up.
I read a quote a while back that stated something along the lines of:
In chaos comes opportunity.
Interesting thought.
